FEAR OF FAILURE

Faith.
I kneel to pray,
As she tips over the ashtray.
Hope.
I lay on the bed,
Her mind miles ahead.
Smile.
I take doses of pills,
Pellets of emotional bills.
Tears.
I listen to her sob,
I relate it to her kind of job.
Fall.
Over and over again,
I let myself into the gates of pain.
Night.
Becomes day for us both,
As she caresses my mouth.
Touch.
Inflicts the thorns,
Deeper and louder than home-bound horns.
Cogitate.
Returning her to her parents,
But she quickly repents.
Forgive.
And forgotten I do,
Then it rebounds like a persistent flu.
This.
Kind of love can kill.
Because its pour then refill.
Hate.
Bruises as we dream,
None of us melts the cream.
Pretence.
At dawn becomes the norm,
Fast comes the shower of storms.
Arguements.
Flood our house,
Strangers can see it on your favorite blouse.
Reconciliation.
Whence we return within the brackets,
Of toleration and understanding perfect.
Until.
When it replays,
And all they can say.
Is.
Its the fear of failure.
That keeps them together.

M.O.O aka Carswell evoL